Winning feels nice

Some days when I’m sitting here typing into a blank screen, I don’t know where it will take me, if anyone is reading and if what I’m doing is worthwhile or worthy.

Typing into the abyss.

But I need this. Not for any adulation or comments or ‘friends’. I need this to help me feel. To deal with my emotions in a way that is positive. To blurt things out. My loves, my triumphs, my fears and my frustrations.

It’s all too easy to feel small. Like these feelings don’t matter. But they do. To bury them deep down, no matter how inconsequential they might seem at the time, would only serve to hurt me and those that I love most. And that is why I blog. To release the pressure valve. To remind myself of my passions. To reflect. To question. To feel.

But having said all that, it would be hard to keep going without a series of small wins. Little things, almost messages from the universe to just keep at it. Comments from bloggers you respect. A few extra hits here, a featured blog post there, a comment saying your words meant something to someone, somewhere. Continue reading