It’s true I had the best of intentions, but I don’t think I really wanted it enough. I had some vague goals, ‘tone up’, loose a few kgs, feel fitter … but the truth was, I was at the point where I felt I ‘ought to’ do something about it, rather than feeling like I ‘had to’.
Last week, after it had been simmering under the surface for many weeks, I felt like those last few kilos just had to go. I needed to lose weight – something I didn’t want to admit to myself before … I was hiding behind ‘get fit’ and ‘tone up’ euphemisms, to try and cajole myself to do something about it, but it just wasn’t motivation enough. I was avoiding the scales, comforting myself with sweet things and just sticking my head in the sand.
The reality is I have been hovering around about 3 kilos above my pre-pregnancy weight since a week after I got home from hospital with my new baby. That’s 16 months ago. It might not seem like a lot, and that’s what I was telling myself for almost that long. But when I figured in that I was probably already at least 4 kilos above my ideal weight when I fell pregnant, it suddenly seemed a whole lot more important for me to shift this weight.
So, a couple of weeks ago I decided to pull my finger out. And for the last week I’ve embarked on stage 1: cutting the crap out of my diet. It wasn’t until I got back to basics, that I realised how much junk had crept into my diet. I’ve cut out the sneaky chocolate bar, the caramel tart at the bakery and the hot chips. I’ve gone back to basic low-cal meals full of fresh vegetables and I suddently feel like I can do this. The cravings are still there, but I am so far resisting temptation.
Stage 2 begins from Saturday when our local Jetts gym opens, just a short walk away. I’m signing up today and am aiming to work out most nights when Jarvis is in bed. I’m also starting a 6 week 10,000 steps challenge at work from Monday, so will be forced to keep moving or lest be publicly shamed by work colleagues!
My first weigh in is tomorrow. Here’s hoping for a bit of downward movement on the scales.
Anyone who has successfully kicked the kilos got any words of wisdom or inspiration for me?! Or are you like me, languishing a few kilos above your ideal weight and seeking a change?
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