I’ve always believed in the power of the universe, but never as much as I do right now. After writing about my feelings about my son on Friday night, I felt a weight lift off me. It felt good to get my emotions out on the computer screen and sent out there into cyberspace, where I thought perhaps a few friends and family members may read them. But then something magical happened.
Saturday morning I logged into check my email and a deluge of messages started arriving, one after another – comments seeking moderation. Fairly new to this blogging business, I had no idea how people had found my little post but with every comment more was revealed. My son’s crooked but amazing smile was greeting them on the wordpress home page.
I sat reading each comment, from amazingly supportive people I had never met each with a story of their own and I grew stronger. I realised by opening up about my son, I had not only let my feelings out but I’d let the universe in. By doing so I was reminded of all that’s good in the world, all the warm and loving souls that my son will meet in his life journey and I let go of my fear for him.
To all those who took the time to post, thank you! I have read each comment and will read them again once the shock of this has worn off a little. You have all reminded me of the power that comes from being brave and made me realise that although my journey alongside my son will be unique, that there are plenty of people navigating similar obstacles, grappling with the push and pull of opposing emotions and finding their own path to tread.
I finally feel the confidence to give voice to mine.